I'm in a bit of strange place at the moment, as my time as a teenager is almost over i find myself questioning allot more. I find myself contemplating what i want to do with my life and what and where i should be and what i need to do to get myself to that point. It seems so easy to fall into the trap of self doubt and disbelief, but in the end i think all that it comes down to is fear. Fear of failing, fear of discovering that you've wasted your time not reaching your full potential and fear of realising that the only reason your not happy is your self. I'm starting come to the belated decision that i need to start committing to things; my work, my art and committing to making myself happy. To let go of the confusion of the past and focus on my goals and reach for them, because i want to feel like I'm going somewhere, doing something and being someone because for the last few years I've felt as if i haven't been going anywhere, appose to most other people my age anyway..
But yeahh, so now I'm sitting in my room listening to the fray.. (altho i was listening to the "a day to remember" version of over my head when i started writing this) waiting for mister Sam clerk to come round to chill for a while then Kiz is maybe coming round later too.. think I'm gonna give town a miss for this friday, save my money for tomorrow to so i can get a lil pissed with the Ozzy sister. haha..
Well i don't really know what to finnish on seen as this is my first post so i guess I'll just use a full stop.
Sam go's to try a pie !
A lil sad me going to hang out at work but awhh well..
After a bit of roaming round town I a faniced a maccys !
kiz's car on the way to get beer !
In the Garden !
Alex cuting down our sunflowers.. BASTARD !
Then picking up his cool wall after kiz thew it all over the floor.
Me just before we went to the pub..
And then touching up sam after the pub this is where i got bored of uploading..lol
